UGH STRESS

I have been so so so stressed lately with everything going on in my life. It's finals week and I can't wait until it's over! I have so much homeowork to do, tests to study for, and packing! AHHH
Next week I will be in the mountains all week camping with my Dad in Washington. It should be fun, but I have to break the news to him...crap.
After that I get to be home thank goodness :) I cant wait to be home with my family to spend time with them and get to see them and plan everything! It will be the best month ever and then Brad will come to Michigan, which I am so freaking excited about!!!!!!
A month away from him will be really hard but when he finally gets there it will be amamamamamazizizizizizizizizizizizing!

Well, back to my studies.

Patience and Good Times

This weekend was fabulous! Friday I went out with Sara and Sadie and then we met up with the boys later. Then Saturday Micah, Sadie, Brad and I went to the sand dunes on Egan lake and played in the water and had lunch. Afterwards we drove up to Driggs to go to te Spud View Drive-In it was a blast!

Life is wild.

Life has been crazy lately. I am starting to feel a little bit better so that's a plus. Last night Brad and I were talking and he suggested that maybe all of the problems wrong with me health wise are actually just a reflection of all of the bad things I put into my body growing up, so pretty much this is all my fault. I think he's right.

So a series of events has made me think a lot about life, my past, and my future. My sister has really been struggleing lately adn then this weekend a close friend of hers commited suicide. I hate that I cant be there to comfort her but I can always pray that things will get better. I cant imagine how he must have been feeling to be to the point of taking his own life, especially a week before graduation. His poor family.

I almost feel guilty with everything going on that I am so excited and wrapped up in Brad and I's relationship, But then I think...that is my future. I already went through crap in my past and pain and hardship so I deserve to be happy now. I deserve to be able to rejoice about where I am and where I am going. This is the best time of my life.

It is really difficuly living with these conflicting emotions sometimes but that's life I suppose.

I am going to start writing a book again. I think it might be good for me. I think I am going to write a biography of sorts but with some changes here and there so it isnt completly my story.. I think it will be a good way to take on this new chapter of my life.

I am so excited for the day I can stop keeping my big secret to myself and I can tell the whole world...but not yet. :)

Brad and I went with his roomates to a Beatles tribute band called: 1963 The Tribute. It was a ton of fun! After the show there was fireworks too. Overall just a really goofd night. Here is a picture and video from the concert.

secrets, secrets are no fun

So this is day 2 of my blogging adventure and I have a lto on my mind.
Pretty much, I hate secrets. Even good ones because I suck at keeping them. I want desperatly to tell the whole world my little secret...but I'm not allowed. And even as patient as I am, I am going crazy wondering when I will be allowed to tell! oh well, it will be an amazing announcement when I am able to spill :)
TGIF! I am so happy it's finally the weekend! It has been such a long week, even though I just got back from a four day weekend. Driving down to Utah twice in one week sure does wipe me out. I am just going to sit back, realx, and chill all weekend with Brad.

Something New

This is obviously my first post here. For a long time I have used livejournal but it is time for a change so bare with me while I figure this out. I figure my life has changed so much I might as well start a new online chapter...so here I am.
Peace & Love